I've been meaning to write this for a while, because it is a battle inside me every moment of the day and I know I am not the only one. From keeping my house clean, loving my husband well, to gaining skill and making it as a photographer in this crazy ever changing world.
I catch myself countless times during the day saying I CAN'T! How will I ever be good?!? I tend to see everyone else as so far ahead and not like me, struggling on this level of doubt and insecurity. But to stay in this place is to take the passion and purpose I have as a creative and a photographer and hide it away in the corner of a closet like an unfinished DIY pinterest project that just needs some love and time.
To be honest I don't really know if I have a succinct point here, but I do know that I have to be honest. If well known, making it big photographers like Jasmine star often post their honest shortcomings, then so can I. I may feel that I have more CANT'S than CAN's, and even if that is true, that does not mean I have to live out of them. I definitely do not know how to photograph perfectly, market stunningly or even get all of my to do's crossed off, but I am not going to give up. Cant's must become Can's, even if it takes time. This a big undertaking for me, someone who sees what I lack far before I see what I am capable of.
So I push forward, taking every CAN'T and making it a can. Being inspired instead of envious and defeated. I have a passion to see the beauty and meaning in everything around me, there is wonder and depth in the moments I seek to capture. A yearly family portrait, a baby's first photoshoot, or even a momentous day that is the beginning of a marriage, these are the moments that I crave to capture. And I CAN